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i am moving from my parents house into a new apartment with my cousin. it is a dual master so i have my own bed, bath, and walk in closet. moving proved to be more exhausting (emotionally and physically) than i expected (and i expected it to be pretty bad). by the grace of God, i survived this weekend with 95% of my things now moved (have a lot of things). oh yeah, in the middle of all that moving we had a yard sale too. there are things that i love about my new place and there are things that i hate about my new place.

THINGS I HATE
1. No directv/dvr (tivo). the apartment only offers cable. no satellites. after one is used to dvr, it is a cruel thing to take that away. before, i could watch all my favorite shows on MY SCHEDULE so that means WHENEVER i want to watch tv, there’s ALWAYS something on. now, i can’t watch desperate housewifes at 3 in the morning. that’s pretty bad. but i would have to say the worst thing of all is no more NFL network. No more NFL Total Access. I don’t know how to deal with this loss. i tried not to think about it, but last night i had a nightmare that i was losing my fantasy football league because i didn’t have the nfl network to keep me abreast of all the news and talk around the league. you don’t understand: i watch this network year round even though football season is only 5 months long. my head is hurting thinking about it. also, no more NFL Season Pass where you get to watch all the games in the whole season for an additional cost.

THINGS I LOVE
1. i love how this aparment is new (under 2 years old) and everything is so new. i love how it smells like new paint, new carpet, new everything. all the new smells and sights makes for a very relaxing and comfortable home.
2. i have more room than living in my parent’s house! now i can fit a tv in my room (the catch 22 is [of course] that there’s no more directv )
3. i love having my own bathroom and a walk in closet
4. i love the fun, nicer neighborhood.

overall, i’m taking the good with the bad. i think the good outweighs the bad and since this is temporary, i will surely get my beloved tivo and nfl network and games back someday. i’m just glad there’s only one more week of hell - er - i mean, work and then it’s S U M M E R !!!!!!

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i haven’t been updating because:

1) I’ve been busy moving while working full time and going on job interviews all at the same time

2) there are some sad things going on this week: losing my dad and dog in the same week (because of the move/divorce), bad students, family issues, residue from the break up, etc

However, i decided to blog today despite all of the previously listed obstacles because i found something to be happy about! i got gas at the usual chevron station today. after i put the pump in, i went in to get some ice cream. when i came back, i was surprised by how low the cost was. i looked at the cost per gallon and it said 2.19. i couldn’t believe my eyes, i checked the advertised sign and it said 3.19. i realized that someone punched in the wrong amount and thus, yours truly hit the gas lottery! my first time at the pump under 30 bucks! woo-hoo! i called all my friends in the area and told them about which pump to go to!!! it’s sad that i got so happy about the cheap gas but i am not going to complain about an excuse to be happy.

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last night was a lot more productive than i thought it was going to be. I paid bills, flossed, and stuff like that. today, i went back to work. it was okay. i am so tired because i didn’t get much sleep last night. this week i have my cousin’s graduation tomorrow night and my own graduation from my teaching credential program thursday. i also have to do senior exit interviews tomorrow and thursday which means my day starts 30 minutes earlier but the classes are shorter. thursday is also freshman picnic day so my first 2 classes will be empty. hooray! next week, i am signing the lease for my new apartment and will be able to move in. oh yeah, tomorrow, i will find out whether or not i teach summer school. i hope i get it. i need the $$$$. so sleepy. now, i will try to relax and be productive at the same time.

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vegas was really great. i haven’t been there in over a year and i missed it and loved it more than i thought. i mostly went outlet shopping. i got a lot of great stuff: coach daphne purse, ag angel jeans with the logo decorated with gems, a ann taylor dress, and some estee lauder makeup.

we didn’t get back until 11:30 at night and of all the times i went to vegas, i never drove. this was the first time i drove from vegas to home. the drive was a lot easier than i thought and i actually really enjoyed it. it felt so good to go somewhere and have a good time. i felt so energized when i got back home.

i missed work today and i felt so guilty. i was just so tired this morning. today was busy and time flew. it was not as produtive as i would have liked it to be. all that happened was that i was able to drop my jeans off to get hemmed, meet with my program coordinator for my teaching credential, and have lunch with a friend. somehow, that took like, 7 hours. ugh. i have so much to do and now i can’t get myself to do any of it. this heat is so depressing! i think i am pretty burnt out. i still have 3 more weeks before summer and all the while i have to move. okay, enough complaining. i’m going to go veg and feel guilty about it because i have a million other things that i should be do but have no energy for.

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first of all, my students were great today! work required the minimal amount of energy. i got flowers at work! aren’t they so pretty?

after waiting 20 years, going to 6 different stores on 3 different nights, i finally got my doll today! I love her! She totally met all my high expectations!

Now i have to get ready to go to vegas! YAY!

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THREE DAY WEEKEND!!! THREE DAY WEEKEND!!! THREE DAY WEEKEND!!!

i’m going to kick it off in classic geek style… a game of Civilization 3!

after that, I’m going to a birthday dinner.

maybe when i get back, i will apply for jobs and be productive. maybe.

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i now know how it feels to have a week’s worth of things to do in one day. between trying to get a new job for next year, petitioning to be considered for my same job for next year, finding a summer school job, finding an apartment, just DOING my job (meetings, lesson planning, detentions, etc), putting out fires in my home life, keeping up with social events (birthdays, etc), weekly doctor appointments since i’m recovering from surgery, and going to school for my teaching credential i’m about as busy as a girl can be.

i’ve been running on adrenaline for the last 3 days and nights.

i have this KNOT in the back of my neck but i can’t exercise it out because i’m not allowed any physical activity after my surgery for at least a couple more days.

i am just so physically and mentally tired but i have to keep on going. i can’t even THINK of stopping because i am so far from finishing. the good thing is that if all my all work now pays off, i’ll have a job for the summer, next year, and a new apartment and teaching credential. bascially, a new life. sigh. so much to think, plan, and do. i feel like i’m going to blow a fuse.

another thing is that i am so tired of seeing my parents take turns mercilessly hurting each other. i feel like a part of me dies when their hatred for one another manifests itself into actions and words. i can’t wait ’til we all live under different roofs. i’ve been a sole witness of this for the last 2 years and i keep thinking i will eventually be numb to the pain but as long as i keep caring, i keep hurting.

tomorrow i have a staff meeting at 7:15, work until 3, class until 6, and a birthday party until 9ish. then i have to come home and apply for jobs and try to lesson plan. wednesday i have a doctor’s appointment after work. thursday i have a summer school job interview after work.

it feels good to write everything out. i feel like i’m sharing my burden with whoever’s reading this. ahhh….

anyway, i’m not complaining. i am actually happy to be busy. ANYTHING is better than dwelling on my woeful lovelife (or lackthereof). what better thing to make me forget about the past but planning and working for my future.

so many things are up in the air right now but when all the planning’s done, i’m going to enjoy free time SO MUCH. I’m just going to enjoy life in general. right now, i feel like i blink and five hours go by! anyway, enough of this. hope everyone is doing well.

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this is a depressing sunday. i was up all night last night because i have 6 weeks to find a new job and apartment. i am no longer moving to texas. i am really happy about this because i don’t want to go and i always wanted to have my own place. the only problem is that rent is crazy and i don’t want to room with strangers. so where i live will completely depend on where i work which i have no idea about at this point. i spent the better portion of today applying and looking for jobs. teaching jobs, that is. i also did some prospective apartment hunting. it’s pretty stressful.

now i am all tired because i had adrenaline running through my body all day and night. my mom is still moving to texas. i was thinking about this today and it made me really sad. i never lived in a different state from my mom before. i don’t want her to go. at first, i was glad because it meant that i could get my own place, but now that i think about it, i want her in the same state still. very sad. thinking about it makes me want to cry. maybe i’m just emotional because i’m tired. our house has received several offers and it’s probably going to be officially sold tonight or sometime this week at the latest. i think i’m going to have to move out the beginning of july. so many changes so fast.