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one of the things i hate most about teaching are the other teachers. i love my administration. i love my students. however, there are some teachers who won’t stop talking crap about me and most of the stuff they are saying are not even true or half truths! i am so angry at these rumors! first, someone said that i don’t spend enough time outside of class to plan and hang out with my coworkers even though i’ve been to most of the happy hours and weekend parties as well as staying after school and listening to other teachers bitch about everything under the sun for hours on end. sorry, but after a few months of that, it gets old. plus, i’m just efficient. i don’t need to spend 200 hours a week planning.

today i heard a new rumor about me. the last rumor was spread by the other chemistry teachers. this rumor is from the math department. apparently, my class is easier than my dept chair’s class. wtf. i didn’t know i was in a competition to fail the most kids. sorry that only 30-40% of my students are failing while 55% of his are failing. why don’t i just fail all of them? would that make me more impressive in their eyes? fuck, it’s like i can’t win. i’m just so sick of this!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! why can’t people just mind their own business? why do they have talk shit about me because they are old and miserable?

ugh.

anyway, on another note, i found out there is a bible study club at my school on wednesdays. i think i’m gonna check it out. the guy who invited me to the bible study club also invited me to his church. you know, i am all for looking for a new church but when he was talking to me i kinda felt uncomfortable b/c i don’t know if i’m ready to committ to a church yet. when i left my last church it was not under the best of terms and just like when i started this new relationship with my current bf i was very wary, i am equally wary about joining a new church. i don’t know if i feel ready to open myself up to the possiblity of investing so much into something that i eventually had to walk away from empty handed (relatively speaking). i don’t know if that makes sense. it’s like getting hurt by something and just not wanting to set yourself up to go through the same pain again. i’ve learned things about myself through this experience and i feel like if i go back i have not learned anything.