i haven’t been in the mood to blog much lately. twittering is so much more efficient and thoughtless. i like how you can say a lot through a tweet without using a lot of words. prose is overrated.

i was at the law school today for a dumb errand when i ran into one of my friends in the hall and we were catching up with one another when we saw an incoming 1L wandering around with his parents. he was wearing an ASU T-shirt. he looked so young. in addition to making me feel old, it made me realize that i’m not sure about my place in the school anymore. i am so used to being a 1L, i don’t know what being a 2L will encompass. it’s weird, but a part of me even envies the 1Ls because law school is this uncharted journey for them. everything they experience this year will be so new. as a 2L, i feel kind of lame. yeah, we get to laugh at the 1Ls, but we’re not as special anymore. it’s hard to explain. i guess i haven’t decided how i feel about being a 2L and how i’m going to feel about in incoming first years. i guess the grass is just always greener. i think there’s something about being a first year though.

i’m at a point where i really hate finals.

(damn my inability to be articulate due to my brain being fried!)

ah, see what i mean?

looking at this 12 hours a day. it’s worse than it seems. whyyyyyyyyyyyy

i’m not over my disappointment from yesterday’s property exam. i hate sucking at things when it was totally preventable!

on a brighter note, my brother sent me the funniest im yesterday:

6:52:41 PM Storm: apparently mom wants me 2 pack u a whole suitcase load of noodles

not gonna lie, i think igoogle is pretty awesome. i’ve never made anything my homepage until now. that’s how sweet it is. i especially love the excellent Edward Monkton designs. too bad i can’t get his awesome screensaver to work on my computer. :(

i am still not over last’s night’s incredible game. i’m still in shock and too happy about everything. my favorite part is was this:

ray allen was so impressive, so confident. i love that in a guy so he’s my stud of the week for the week beginning june 8th.

in other news, i’m done with the school year and teaching! it was kinda sad to leave the gates of my school for the last time but now that i am home and super duper relaxed, i’m so happy. the first day of summer is always one of the best. yesterday was so hellish. i worked 12 hours straight and barely stopped ten minutes just to eat lunch. it was a horrible, stressful day. today is much easier.

last friday i played in my school’s faculty vs seniors basketball game. it was something i’ve always wanted to do and i figured that it’s probably my last year teaching i might as well do it while i still can. when i saw the email to sign up, i was in a particularly good mood so i signed up. after i thought about it a little more, i got really scared and i didn’t want to play anymore but i couldn’t get out of it. haha. well, here’s a picture of me “playing basketball” that night.

also, unbeknownst to me, we were also the half-time show-like entertainment. we had to dance to the electric slide cha cha cha (the first i’ve ever heard of this song), ymca, and the peanut butter and jelly song. ahhahahaha. here are my coworkers and i trying to do the ymca.

sigh. i haven’t been so embarrassed for a long time but it was funny and i had a good workout.

what up, dudes? lots of things to cover today so let’s get started!

first of all i have some beauty reviews.

I don’t know if you remember last week when i said i was gonna start trying to look more presentable at work. well, i stayed true to 2/3 of my mission. i did my own nails to save money and i wore make-up every single day of the week. i don’t think that’s happened in years. the only thing i failed to do was stop wearing jeans. i really really failed. not only did i continue to wear jeans but i stopped wearing nice sweaters and nice shoes and instead went back to wearing sweatshirts, hoodies with converse sneakers, nikes and uggs. bad, bad prach. lazy prach.

wow, that was a long tangent. anyway, back to the point. i bought three adorable bottles of essie nail polish last week (happily ever after, cabi-o-lait, and no pre-nup) and the OPI topcoat. i am not the type to do my nails (only a couple times a year) so i am not dainty with my hands and this nail polish did an excellent job of withstanding the wear and tear i put it through. i like essie better than OPI now because of the better color selection.

a couple of months ago i left my usual shiseido the skincare facial cleanser to try murad. this stuff is okay but definitely not worth the price. i am never buying this shit again. shiseido is about the same price and it works so much better. murad isn’t bad, it’s just not worth the high price.

today i am trying two new makeup products: l’oreal infalliable and cover girl’s lash blast. i’ll write a detail review sometime soon.

so i was in an unusually great mood on monday morning (normally i am a miserable grumpy mess). i checked my work email as i always did and in my inbox was an open invitation to the faculty to play in the faculty basketball game. we will be playing against some D-list celebs from Power 106. unfortunately, my good mood overtook me and i signed up like a moron. this morning, i was back to my usually grumpy I-hate-everyone-and-I-hate-mornings self and i retracted my email saying that i was gonna play in the basketball game because i’m probably going to end up with no points, no rebounds, no assists, and 20 turnovers. the basketball coach wrote back saying my students would probably love to see me and it isn’t about ability but just having fun but it’s up to me. that email made me feel like a sorry sport so now i’m torn. part of me wants to do it because it seems fun and i like to try new things but part of me would be just as happy spending a quiet evening alone relaxing. any advice? please! i don’t know what i should do!

finally, i started out being neutral as far as the democratic candidates went and then i started favoring obama. now, i’m beginning to get tired of hilary’s dishonest and malicious campaigning ways. its seems like every time i turn around she tells another lie.

bosnia
heathcare story
foreign policy “experience”

she also said something about obama’s race helping him with this campaign but i can’t find the article on that now so i’ll just put up this video instead as an example of the dirty dirty mudslinging that goes on regularly in the clinton campaign:

finally, i want to end on a good note. I hope the democratic superdelegates would man up and just support obama. they are supposed to represent the voice of the people and the people have spoken.

I like this quote: 

“Like The Simpsons - if you’re dumb, you’re gonna get it and love it and if you’re really smart you’re gonna get it and love it.” - one of the founders of 51 Minds, a television production company.

on a completely different topic… today, i had to go to a meeting at work that was run by one of the educational consultants my school hired. this is what i think of her:

here’s a picture of me and one of my favorite students this year. i love this girl because even though we have every reason to not get along, we just do somehow and it’s a really beautiful thing. i remember when my principal came to evaluate me he was most impressed by her behavior in my class because apparently she gives other teachers trouble but she is an angel for me. i was so sad because she had to leave our school to go to a different school. i love her and miss her so much. sorry, i look like a disgusting mess when i’m at work. since i’m a teacher, i feel like part of the job description is to look like a mess and commit fashion faux pas on a regular basis. har har har!

today i had one of the best times in tutoring ever. i had three students show up and they were all so excited when they understood the material. it felt so good to see the look of accomplishment in their eyes and their excitement and smiles. i had this one kid in particular that i was honestly not looking forward to tutoring. he never understands anything in class and i found out his dad’s in jail and he just says the most uneducated and ghetto things in class. sometimes he wears on my patience. anyway, i was surprised because he was the last person i expected to see in tutoring but i wanted to help make it a positive experience for him so he would come back. anyway, i think he blew us both away because he made so much progress. i was so proud of him and i was so excited. the hour just flew by. 

p.s. sorry if you think i’m a bad person/human or whatever. i’m just honest about everything but i’m human. i don’t want to hear any “you’re such a horrible teacher comments” please. try teaching first before you tell me how to do my job. kthxbai. 

p.p.s. sorry if i sound defensive. teaching just one of those jobs where everyone thinks they’re an expert and i’m just sick of people judging me as a teacher.   

p.p.p.s. i’m drinking milk that over 2 weeks expired. it’s actually not bad. there’s a slight bitter aftertaste but it’s not sour or gross at all. must be all the hormones and preservatives. in case you’re worried, i had this milk with cereal last night and i feel fine today so i guess it’s not bad. man, i’m gross. i’m like someone’s gross little brother who is also the makeshift garbage disposal.

i recorded what i think is my best viddler yet and i am having major trouble uploading it. darn. i’ll try again later if i have time.

today, i found out one of my students who was on probabtion couldn’t keep his grades up and had to leave school to go to jail.

i found out another student who used to be one of the smartest kids in the class before she stopped coming to school was molested by her dad (who is now in jail) and is now cutting and burning herself.

both these kids stole my heart in their own unique way and now my heart is broken for them. i cried at work today.

oh yeah, i got 3 hours of sleep last night.

i can’t believe what a big dork i am until i saw myself on the playback. so sad it’s funny.

dear everyone i’ve disappointed,

i’m sorry. i can’t really handle life right now.

-me

p.s.
thanks to my students for keeping me smiling even when i’m down and making me laugh harder than i have in a very long time.

i love my job right now.

i had such a good day of teaching today. i think it was the best teaching day so far this school year!

i’m excited for tomorrow. i get to eat for free all day long! they will be serving us breakfast and lunch at work. lunch, we have a choice of lasagna or tacos and i think i’m gonna have to go with the tacos. dinner, i am having a home cooked meal by my mom with my family and friends! yay!

btw, i haven’t had spicy chicken bites this whole week! yay for me! (it is like my heroin) lol

feeling good this morning: not tired, not sad. as i got out of my car, i asked myself “how am i going to entertain my students today? students whose insulin levels flucuate wildly throughout the course of the day due to their poor dietary habits. students who were weaned on myspace, youtube, and channels like mtv where they never have an image that lasts longer than 6 seconds? how am i going to get them to be interested in the rotary balance and taking accurate measurements in the lab?” hahahaha.

 then, when i came onto campus, i felt like i live at my school since i’ve spent so much time here lately.

 time for my breakfast. gonna eat now.

so much is going on today…

the day before school starts. worked approx 13 hours and still not everything is done yet. oh yeah, had 4 hours of sleep the last 2 nights

got dance supervision duty on the saturday night that i was planning on having my bday party. was able to swap it though.

got told at 3pm today that my adminsitration wants me to travel 5th and 6th period tomorrow. wtf. totally ridiculous. they are trying to revamp the schedule. will hopefully be resolved by the end of the week.

trying to plan my bday party. i hate planning anything, especially something big like a party but for the first time in my life, i want a say of what kind of party i want. yesterday i picked the place & activities, narrowed down to two dates, and started on my guest list. today, i finalized guest list, picked date and time, and sent out evites.

still working on application process. got another letter of rec in the bag. one more to go… still waiting on responses fr 2 different profs.

joined my 2nd fantasy football league today. i am gonna get first pick! uploaded my team logo (lt’s face) and tried to update team name. changed my team name from my first league.

went shopping for back to school stuff in the middle of the night. got a stupid clicker thing for my keynote (powerpt) presentation but the piece of shit doesn’t work! ARGH! looked for a cushioned bench stool w/ back support and no luck. =/

all my friends are depressed and calling me to make them feel better. something i love doing except i’m so tired i am sucking badly at it. busy busy. found out one of the guys at the standard w/ me on sunday now has a crush on me. awkard. now all my friends are trying to set us up. i’m not interested in him like that. pressure from friends.

okay, i was supposed to get my eyebrows threaded and do my nails so i will look good for the first day of school tomorrow but it’s alredy 11:40pm and i still have to take a shower. i guess i will have to settle for plucking and removing my chipped polish.

all this in one day!

i have to get up in about 6 hours.

last night was my last night of summer vacation. i spent it at the standard hotel’s rooftop lounge in downtown LA. dude, the place is sooo awesome! i loved it! it was so chill and i had a blast dancing with my friends. we were outside on a rooftop w/ a pool, bar, and dancefloor. it was also b/c the backdrop was the LA skyline and it was such a nice breezy night. the only sucky thing was there was this creepy stalker guy following me around and who couldn’t take not-so-subtle hints that i wasn’t interested. i came up with what i thought was a pretty clever way to say no which was “I want to be single FOREVER.” after i said that, he was like “you’re sweet.” i couldn’t tell if he was being scarastic or if he was just plain dumb. anyway, it got really annoying b/c he started creeping my friends out and i felt really bad that i wasn’t assertive enough to make him go away. so stressful.

today, i went back to my school for teacher meetings and getting ready for the new year. it was great seeing everyone again but what sucked was some of my closer teacher friends were asking about the lsat and it wasn’t really something i wanted to talk about. telling them i have to retake it isn’t exactly great news. =/ we had a really good motivational speaker this year. he was so much better than last year’s guy and really highlighted to me the absolute best parts of being a teacher. the day went by fast but i got a lot done and my room looks great already (not to toot my own horn)!.

anyway, one of my old students from last year emailed a picture that we took together on the last day of school:

(my classroom looks like a huge mess :[)

today has been a very frustrating day for me. it’s the second to the last day of summer school and my kids are going crazy, which, in turn, drove me crazy. it was the most frustrating day of the summer. i don’t know how tomorrow is going to be. hope it will be better. last day of summer school. FINALLY. I’m going to give myself tomorrow and friday off and then i’m going to start doing lsat prep tests again this weekend. this will be the first time since the took the test in june that i’ve even looked at an lsat problem.

I would consider this year to be my most successful year of teaching by far. I got some of the best yearbook messages I have ever gotten as a teacher. Here are some that particularly stood out:

“I don’t think I can ever put how great this year has been in your class in words. It has been more than I ever expected and I’m glad I got you as my chemistry teacher. You made me WANT to learn chemistry which is amazing. But I just wanted to tell you thank you for always starting my day off great. I really have to say you have been my favorette teacher in all my high school years, and I’m pretty sure I will never have a teacher as great as you again. I really hope you see you next year… I’ll be sure ot visit.”

“Thank you for being a good teacher and funny person. I know I did give up in your class but honestly I don’t understand chemistry. It just wasn’t meant for me. but you are still a really good teacher. I really enjoyed your class and listening to all your stories and your jokes. I hope you have a really great summer and good luck with law school. I really do hope that you scored high on your test because that is what you want so i hope you do good on that and good luck. If i ever need a lawyer I’ll call you J/K. Well thank you very much. I won’t forget you.”

“You are like the best teacher ever! You made chemistry so fun. I really learned a lot about chemistry or just life in general. I had a lot of fun this year and feel so lucky for being in your class. You are the only teacher I’ve ever had met that actually understands us. I’m going to miss your class!”

“Well I want to tell you that I know I am quiet and I have bad grades but I have learned a lot and I want to thank you. You were probably the best teacher I had. Well I’m going to miss you. Take care and have the best summer ever.”

I remember a long time ago, someone left a comment on my blog saying that they wanted to go into teaching but after reading my blog, they decided not to do it anymore! It’s kinda funny but kind of sad. It’s something I feel somewhat responsible and guilty for and I hope posting these yearbook comments might help some of the damage done by my overall cynicism and negative outlook.

Anyway, TODAY WAS THE LAST DAY OF SCHOOL! Seriously, I think today is better than Christmas and my birthday put together. The weather was beautiful and it was like i finally got to say “Ahhh…” after holding my breath since september. I love summer. Life is great. I am so happy right now.

7:58:35 PM dje5fore: what did u eat
7:58:47 PM peativy: 3 fish tacos from rubio’s
7:58:51 PM peativy: that was dinne
7:58:53 PM peativy: r
7:59:04 PM peativy: lunch i had gigantic egg roll from the school cafeteria
7:59:20 PM peativy: breakfast i ate breaded chicken breast w/ mash potatoes
7:59:27 PM dje5fore: sounds good..
7:59:35 PM dje5fore: gigantic egg roll.. haha
7:59:45 PM dje5fore: asian egg roll?
7:59:52 PM peativy: i dont’ know
7:59:55 PM peativy: cafeteria food
8:00:01 PM peativy: i don’t even know what kind of meat was in it
8:00:06 PM peativy: …if it was meat…
8:00:06 PM peativy: haha
8:00:11 PM dje5fore: haha.. was it good
8:00:39 PM peativy: yeah
8:00:44 PM peativy: well, maybe not good
8:00:49 PM peativy: just not as bad as the usual stuff
8:00:54 PM peativy: actually, today’s wasn’t so bad
8:00:57 PM dje5fore: ahh i see
8:00:59 PM peativy: last time there was a bone in it
8:01:00 PM peativy: lol
8:01:05 PM dje5fore: damn yuckkk
8:01:07 PM peativy: or cartilage or something
8:01:08 PM peativy: yeah
8:01:14 PM peativy: it’s the worse food i’ve ever seen in my life
8:01:23 PM peativy: i don’t know why they can’t give us half decent shit
8:01:35 PM peativy: this is stuff starving dogs would probably be afraid to touch